If my thoughts were to come out loud....this is what I would say....

dajenem4 @ 2008-04-08T12:54:00

2008-04-08T16:54:51Z

dajen

Not all things are meant to be shared....

2008-03-25T19:10:49Z

What to share....toys, sometimes clothes, casserole dishes, pie plates, crock pots.......
What not to share.......spouses, personal items --- and GERMS

And while I typed the first line, it occurred to me that a certain someone who has willingly shared her kid's germs with my kid has still failed to return to me a glass casserole dish and a freaking hot pad from when I made a meal for her when her (now 9month old) baby was born.....aaarrrrrggggghhhhhh......

I would really really like to have a conversation, wish I had the gumption to have the conversation with this so-called-friend and just lay it out there --- ironically -- I spoke with her yesterday, as I waited in line for my Emma's Rx (decongestent) and told her I was waiting in line.....ok rewind....

Last Thursday at small group, I noticed that her son (9 mos) cheeks were rosy. Really rosy. Well, her statement was "wind burn"....my thought, really? you've been out running a marathon with him??? Anyway, I may have notice a little sinus drainage but kept Emma's toys from him mostly because WE have been sick. Well, she and her hubby are looking for a new house and had video taped on that they really liked...she asked if she could come over on Fri AM to show me -- fine....there obviously wasn't anything majorly alerting me that there would be germs involved. She got here Friday -- the kids played, then his nose started to run and he was sneezing.....fair enough....I just tried to watch what toys were shared....then she pulled out a jar of food and a spoon for him to eat -- Emma was "begging" (like a dog would, just watching intently but not whining) so I went to the kitchen to get Em a yogurt.....while I was out.....SHE FED MY KID A BITE WITH THE SPOON SHE HAD BEEN FEEDING HER KID WITH......AAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH......why?!? why?!? why?!?......I don't understand.....yesterday she said she thought her son's nose issue was from him teething his 1 year molars (he's 9 mos...Emma is 12 mos....no molar issues going on). But then later in the conversation she states to me that the doctor (we have the same one) also prescribed the same decongestent for her son as they had for us but they opted to take another medicine......omg.....I am literally going to change my number and fill up my schedule......this is insane......

And her Easter gift to other people???? Well, Saturday, her #3 kid started puking around 8pm and by 12midnight had puked 4 times.....by 4pm on Easter Sunday she felt it OK to take the kids to a public Easter Egg Hunt.......thankfully we missed that blessed event!

Oh, and note -- I haven't heard from her once today......geez.....with friends like that....who needs em?

I will soon be planning a private neighborhood -- only sane adults that have the same adversion to germs as I will be allowed to live let alone breathe there!!

On a good note --- Dave's suspension got reduced to 3 days.....and he got all of his makeup work done.

another tangent

2007-09-11T18:45:35Z

OK, so I have decided not to innoculate Emma until she is bigger -- alteast not anymore until she is bigger sooo today was her 6 mos check up.....I went, fully prepared to expect some disputes for not having her innoculated -- and got NONE....as a matter of a fact, it took longer to get the girls (Em & Jen) in the van and drive to the doctor than it did with the doctor and nurse combined. What?!?! Let alone, my wait in the waiting room was almost none existant. And you say "You're complaining?!?" -- well, you see, I have had this pediatrican since I was 7 mos preg. with Dave -- I interviewed him and liked him so I kept him -- now, I just don't know. He has been somewhat different with Emma than he has the other two -- more letting me call the shots (maybe because it's #3 and I am 35, I dunno) but today was like I had been shoved through a revolving door -- then I get to the check-out. We have a balance from all this stuff with her birth etc -- around $400...I tell her I am going to pay $50 towards our balance and the $20 co-pay....she says fine.....then I try to schedule Em's 9mos check up -- nada -- she says it's policy to not schedule appts until balances are paid down -- I say, "paid off? or paid down" -- she says, it does't have to be paid off just way down. OK, wierd....again, please keep in mind that Em's appt was at 1:30 -- we got up to the office and signed in around 1:35ish and I was in the van talking to Kyle about Em's appt at 1:54......THAT'S INSANE. On top of the fact that when the other two were little, I felt lucky to wait in the waiting room that short of time -- and today, there was no one in there when I got there nor when I left?!? It makes me wonder if he has lost patients. I honestly don't have a problem with him -- it's his staff -- they talk to me like I am stupid -- the one nurse told me today that Emma could start eating meals as long as the food wasn't too chunky -- ok, are you sure cause she was sure eye-ballin my steak the other night.....let me use my newest favorite phrase "hey buddy, this ain't my first rodeo, ya know!" -- unbelievable. She also weighed Emma with a dirty diaper -- didn't want to wait until I changed her.....and said that the spots on her tummy that I was questioning was probably heat rash (um, btw, it is like maybe 65 outside and our windows are open in the house). I wonder if it is time to switch docs -- I have questioned that some since Em's birth -- the lovely bedside manner (one issue) -- I can't take all 3 kids in the same day for check ups, it's their policy(another issue) and I am not at all happy with the in and out manner today.....hmmmmm

Ok -- on the bright side -- she is still fat and sassy -- weighing in at 17lbs 8oz with a poopy butt and 28 inches long or so, cause I think Emma's legs were in the air when she took the measurement.....I think I get more accurate readings at breastfeeding support group. Doctor says she is perfect (I am using his words).

Now, off to bed i go -- this sinus crap has knocked me out and I should sleep as long as Emma is sleeping.

Dreams, emails and text messages....

2007-08-13T19:19:33Z

I am a believer in things happening for a reason and timing of everything -- again, happens for a reason. This whole liver situation that would have never been uncovered had I not been so determined to breast feed and my uncanny desire for more knowledge caused me to research what could help me nurse Em longer leading to the discovery of the high liver enzymes. In the middle of the drama and me trying to decide on the second opinion for the liver biopsy - should I see my family doc or should I see as specialist in Indy -- my family doc's office called, out of the blue, and requested a visit -- he had received copies of my blood tests and wanted to see me -- well, there was my answer and my second opinion.....also in this same time frame I contacted a homiopathic doctor in northern IN to get his opinion and direction (this dr. was referred to me by my hubby's aunt who goes to the same church). shortly after I emailed this DO, I found out his daughter had fallen ill and he had spent quite a bit of time away helping her to the point where I had totally forgotten I emailed him when he contacted me last Friday.....the same morning I had woken up from this odd dream....

I had ran into a friend from elem. school...someone I had fond memories of...someone that was trustworthy and honest...well, in my dream, not so much. I had been to the GI doc and he had given me a Rx -- that was not connected to the biopsy -- and this person had stollen it?!?! Why Im not sure. When I called the GI doc's office to get the script re-written she said she would find the doc and get back to me....a while later I get a test message on my phone ------ BAD NEWS, DR. NOT IN TO RE-WRITE SCRIPT -- GOOD NEWS, BIOPSY CAME BACK AND SHOWS ONLY DIABETES TYPE II.....then I woke up.....

Odd....diabetes type II.....the one thing I had not been tested for -- still have not been tested for.....and odd that I woke up with that...nothing more

Then the phone call...
I was standing in the lobby of the skating rink (homeschool skating party) when my cell phone rang -- a 260 #.....
"Hello" -- "Hello, Rhonda? This is Dr. Streeter"....."who?" -- "Dr. Streeter, I'm sorry it took me so long to get back with you." [keep in mind, my first reaction to this Dr. Streeter -- in my head -- is 'holy crap, my biopsy results were so bad they didn't even call me just forwarded me to a specialist] ....he continues, "my wife has been gone and although it is a lame excuse, I honestly cannot use this stupid computer without her..." --- "ok??" [still confused....I am just playing along at this point....then my lightbulb comes on]...."I see your email here....again, I am soo sorry it took so long to respond....this is Dr. Streeter from northern Indiana" [angels sing and my brain goes....OHHHH, duh]....I tell him I understand that I had heard his daughter was ill and that he had been in my prayers.....I go outside so I can hear him better.....he again apologizes for not getting back to me saying there is no excuse to not get with a patient....then the creapy words come out of his mouth...."I want you to take a pill called lecti-trim, 2 pills 3x's a day and another pill Colostrum spelled c-o-l-o-s-t-r-u-m, 1 pill 3x's a day. The colostrum is taken from cows within hours of delivering a calf....it will cure your diabetes and heal whatever it is your body is fighting causing your liver to go out of wack." [did he just say, cure my diabetes?? I don't have diabetes...then my brain flashes back to the text message in my dream -- YIKES]. I tell him I haven't been diagnosed with diabetes -- he says it's only a matter of time and that this will heal me, I will lose inches and the weight will drop off of me.....that it won't hurt my breast milk but boost it giving Emma even more immune fighting good stuff (not his word, but the same thing). He proceeds to give me the number to call to get the pills out of Shipshewana -- I ask him to email me because I am at a homeschool skating party -- he does, wishes me well and says this will work!

Then the email:
In addition to the information to the pills and what to take he adds one more bit of information that has been weighing heavily on my mind....Emma's immunizations. He adds a third point of recommendation....don't have her immunized until she weighs 25lbs or more.....I was stunned.... I had not asked his opinion, but there it was.....almost as if a father was answering all of those unspoken questions....

It is weird -- I am a firm believer in the power of prayer.....I believe in the power of prayer probably the strongest of all faith issues....and the timing of all of this is unbelievable....Now, I still don't know the actual results of my biopsy...I find out on Friday (17th) but all of this tells me that my prayers are still answered....and that although I wasn't jumping for joy about getting the biopsy, I had it done, survived it fine and now my answers are coming full fold.....my dad helped me pay for the pills....$78 for the month's supply....let's see how they work.....and I am curious to know if the results truely showed diabetes.....I do strongly feel that if the results would have been life shattering the would have called me in for a visit before now....and from what I see about the pills on the internet...wow to the results...hopefully they work that well....it makes me nervous to believe in a "wonder pill" but I honestly feel that if I have prayed on it and this is the answer, I have to trust it....otherwise, I have faith for not and I am not about that at all....

more later...the baby is sleeping and I need to clean house......